The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears.

I once knew a girl, i called her my best friend. We use to talk none stop on the phone, at least twice a day. I told this girl everything..my secrets, my dreams, my problems, my fears... etc She use to say tell me she loves me right before we'd hang up..and i thought she ment it..maybe she did-i dont know. I know that when i said it i ment it because i trusted that girl with my life. I remember one time in particular when my ex gf sent me pics of her making out with another girl..i was so hurt, i was crying all over the place..i ran to work-hoping she'd be there..and she was. Its like she was waiitng for me..she held me in her ams. told me i was better then Angel..she just held me in her arms until i calmed down.
I dont know what happened..i quit my job, she was there the day i did..but she wasnt upset or anything..it was the last time we talked..i gave her my house# b/c my cell was cut off. Well anyway..i tried calling her a few times..she never picked up..she never once tried to call me. A few months later(a month or so ago) i tried calling her again..i called her at least a hundred times..usually she picks up-but she didnt-never once did she call me. And it hurts soo bad!! We were friends....it hurts so bad(like a breakup). I cry when i think about her because she ment(means) so much to me. SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND!
I had a dream about her the other day... i went by my old job, i saw her through the window. I waved numerous times until i caught her attention..i was so happy..she just stared at me.....it hurt so much, even in the dreams. In the dream i started crying..and she just stared!!
She was online today..I imed her, told her how hurt i was....and she didnt say a word. Not one word. I started crying....what happened!? we were best friends one moment and the next..it was like we were never friends....I wish i could have her back..have our friendship back......*sigh*